Baby Fever

There are some days when all I do is think, pray, hope, wish, and cry for a baby! BUT then there are those days I have worked my ass off for some of the worst patients ever and I never want to have kids again......it's usually short lasted though! I am still working on losing all the weight to be at my goal and if all goes well I will get the job at the cancer center. US oncology offers fertility benefits to all employees and with all the weight loss and the benefits I just know we would get our BFP!! Financially we cannot pay for another round of IVF out of our pocket. We have spent well over $30,000 and we just can't do it again. I am praying that this is all in Gods plan and that in the next week I will get called back for a second interview and then get an offer!! God really has been so great to Johnny and I and I give thanks!

Easter

Happy Easter Everyone!! I had to work all weekend and did not get to do anything for Easter but at least it was a quiet day in L&D!! I hope everyone had a great Easter and may God bless you all!!

Finally frustrated

So I decided to go back to work today, broken ankle and all!! Dr. Reily, the orthopedic doctor, said it was fine and gave me a release. So I am at work and after being there over 3 hours I find out my "boss" did not approve me to come back because I am in a boot!! So I don't know how long I will be off and I need the money! I am trying really hard to be patient and wait for them to call me back and let me know the verdict but I am freaking PISSED!! They knew Thursday that I was coming back and no one even bothered to call and let me know not to!! I so cant wait to hear about my applications I put in! I turned one job down because it was a pay cut and I would be driving 110 miles a day to the office. I know alot of my online friends commute daily and that seems like nothing but for a small town like mine it is absurd! I am so hoping the cancer center likes my resume and calls me back soon!! I would also love to stay inside the hospital and just transfer to the Nuclear Medicine Unit!! Hoping and Waiting LOL!!

Blow to the pocektbook!!

Ok so today I found out that our house payment is going up!! Not just a little bit but nearly $500!! Not to mention I have been off work so much and AFLAC isn't as good as people think it is!! I am so stressed and nervous about Johnny losing his job in this economy that I have taken on a PRN job at home hospice along with my regular job at the hospital! I want to change jobs so bad that there is noway in hell I can do it now and take a pay cut. I know that we make way more money than the average family does and I wonder how we ever made it. I know we will survive anything that comes our way, we already have, but I just wonder if this economy is ever going to pick back up or if we are fixing to be living in the 2nd great depression!! OBAMA sucks....he didn't fix shit, and all the big wig CEO's are still getting it hand over fist!! Why the hell doesn't someone stand up and put an end to this crap!! Bush was no saint but Obama isn't even close to Bush!