Ok so I have never been one to be called "grace" but apparently I am LOL. Yesterday I went to meet Johnny for lunch and as we are leaving the resteraunt I somehow FALL!! But not only do I fall, I break my left ankle, busted open my right knee and embarress myself completely. So I am in bed with it propped up waiting till Thursday to go see an Orthopedist!! Yesterday after I got home I cried like a baby because I felt like I was going insane. I mean when am I going to get a break. So someone today on Mybabish told me I have to hit rock bottom to start going back up and I am thinking I am almost there!! I need to re-evaluate my life, my faith, and my dreams. I need to start going to church again and renew my relationship with God. I need to me more optomistic but realistic with my life, dreams, and desires. Maybe I am being punished for all the bad things I have done in life. I am not perfect, nor ever claimed to be. I am not better than anyone else, yet have thought that while judging someone. I am not as special to this world as I would like to think I am. I am one person, one average person, one everyday person. Why should I think I should have the world at my feet when so many other one persons does not. I think I need to make sure my chldren are raised in the word of God and become the best people they can become. Something I have let slip to the wayside. I see now where I have gone wrong in my life and my childrens lives. Noah and Joseph live in this house and I need to make sure that as long as I am responsible for them they should learn about responsibility, faith, and friendship. Ok so off to meet Mr. Darvocet again!!
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